In January I made a resolution to learn to live more in the moment and less in yesterday's shortcomings and tomorrow's anticipation. I thought this had become just another resolution (like all the others).
In August we decided it was time to try and add to our family of two. I never assumed we would be able to bring a baby home in 9 short months but I also never imagined getting to know the ins and outs of the fertility office. I was diagnosed with PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) in September. I knew, just knew, something wasn't right and after seeing 2 doctors, the third was an answer to my prayers. My prayer was that all was okay and I was just losing my mind but that if I were right, that the doctors would find the issue and be able to correct it. After many trips to GRS (awesome office and physicians) and countless pokes and prods later, I am now on a track to hopefully get pregnant without medical intervention.
I tell you all of this to say that these last few months have given me an amazing amount of peace because peace came when I realized (perhaps "finally" accepted) that I don't have control over much in this life, especially the one thing I want most (a child).
How freeing it was to realize that I didn't have to be the mastermind behind my life's greatest (and not so great) events. If God himself rested on the seventh day, then surely he meant for me to have a little peace in this world.
Have you felt peace this year?
"I have told you these things so that in me you may have peace"
~John 16:33
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